Friday, April 30, 2010

Bed Rest Sucks

Many of the mothers that I know would probably agree with me that the idea of sitting in a bed for a few days doesn't really sound all that bad. Locked away from the screaming the whining. The constant onslaught of wants and needs. Bed rest seems like the ideal plan for any mother to "get away" from it all.

Maybe if you were staying at the Hyatt by the beach. But bed rest in your own home sucks.

I am one of the lucky ones too. I have a great family that just happens to have a couple members that don't work, and live close enough to be available for an extended period of time to come and take care of my three small children and my home.

But I am a control freak. I am bossy. I am so bossy and controlling that I am therapy to learn to not be so controlling and bossy. Twice a week. So for someone like to me to be in my own home where I can hear what is going on but not see it and not be able to get up and do anything about it is just plain torture. Torture not only for me, but for those around me. The really great people that have offered to give up their time and live in my home have to put up with me.

Today we tried a new approach. I was allowed out of my room and was set up on the really nice recliner in the living-room. Disaster. It put me right in the mix of things. So now not only could I hear everything but I could see it too. I started to bark orders and could feel my blood pressure rise with every command that was not obeyed. I finally (due largely to my time in therapy) announced that I needed to go back to my room to get as far away from my husband and his inability to achieve the perfect dad routine that I expected from him. My sister packed me up set me up in my room and said nicely before she left, "your bossy and I don't like it". Then she came back and offered me water and food. My husband came and brought me some movies and then they closed the door and said call if you need anything.

I am trying but lets face it, this is my home, my kids and it is a lot to ask anyone to just give it all up to others to run. You show me one mother or wife that can do that without a struggle.


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